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So today I have no idea what I'm doing..I could be going to the carnival..I could be going to jared's..I have no idea..my mom is being a bitch about absolutly nothing..mmm my hair is soft...My eye is itchy...anyways Joe had to go to work at 8:30am he'll get out at 2pm...I'm gonna wait til he gets home from work to do anything sense I have to do alot of laundry..My mom woke me up this morning..she has been a uber bitch lately..I think my dad is bossing her around as usual and plus I think she is scared if things don't get done my dad will scream at her...everyone is gone in my neighborhood that I hang out with.
My downstairs phone keeps ringing off the hook its annoying..I'm tired...I want to take another bath..laters..
I love joe<3
amber<3
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[11 Jul 2005|09:38am] |
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So these past 3 days have horrible and intresting..they are only horrible because I got blamed with something and it made me feel like a piece of shit..Lets just say something was missing frm my parents room and I got blamed for it...Joe kissed me to hard on the neck so I been wearing my hair downcause it looks like a hicky and I can't explain myself cause my parents don't listen and just go right to conclusions...Yesterday I went to church with Joe and then to his grandma's..after Joe and I had to come back to my house so my mom could have a "talk" with us..that actually ended well but I still feel like crap cause my dad still thinks I took it...I only got blamed cause I have a serious boyfriend..which is gay..yesterday Joe had to leave at 4pm cause my parents were leaving for this fire thing and I decided to go only cause I wasn't gonna be able to eat dinner if I didn't go..but my mom told me when we were there that I could have Joe back over so I call him when I get home and he is like I'll think about it and then calls back and is like oh I'm going to Sovano's birthday party and that made me get pissed at first but then I just called Meilah and I asked her what she was gonna be doingmonday and she was like why and I told her I needed a job bad so I could get out of my house and she was like if I feel good tomorrow we'll go job hunting and then she asked what am I doing tonight and I was like nothing now so she invited me to walk the dog on the boardwalk..so like 2 minutes before Meilah comes and gets me Joe calls to come over and I was like I'm going with Meilah to the boardwalk so he is like I'll call and ask if I can go so I'm like go for it and then we get off the phone and Meilah pulls up and beeps..I felt sorta bad but not really cause he just left like that for Sovano's party...So today at 10:30am I gotta call Meilah to see hows she is feeling to go job hunting which I doubt Meilah will feel good and up to do..I'll probably do nothing today..Joe has to work today...I won't see him today which is perfectly ok..but tomorrow is 7 months and the carnival starts tomorrow so I guess thats where I'll be sense I'm not allowed at Joe anymore because my parents say so cause they think we're having sexx..which is funny cause if he really thought that he would make me brake up with him but he has no proof and he knows that if everything ends between Joe and I there will be alot of problems in the house...a year and half till I'm 18 I can't wait..Just cause I won't be a slave anymore in my house...It's not that I'm lazy its cause I can't do anything without my dad questioning me and not trusting me.My dad thinks Joe is gonna hurt me an then I'll cut myself cause you know my dad is totally clueless on everything cause politics is so much more important...but honestly my dad thought Joe was using me to get Nicole mad but um its 7 months later and I'm still going out with him..I love Joe to death and he says the same why would I think he is using me...my dad doesn't like seeing me happy...but my dad will never trust me so ya..I deal with the questions always being asked and the no word...Ya so this is basically whats been going on so laters....
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[08 Jul 2005|01:46pm] |
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So this rain sucks monkey balls..Joe went to work...he works till 7 tonight..He basically got Jard a job too which is great..Meilah wanted me to come over today and when I did they were leaving..They told us we could come cause I was with my sister and A-Man-Duhh..but Jared was gonna have to drive sense Meilah has trouble driving in pouring rain...so they drove me home and Meilah said she'll come get me at 4..but I don't know if my mom will let me go..I hope she does cause I'm bored..but I bet my mom won't let me go cause I haven't been home for dinner in 2 days...but its not like they care sense my dad can't stand me at the dinner table...he should be in a better mood cause he got the job he wanted and he is gonna make alot of money so yea...Well A-Man-Duhh, Jess, and I are very soaked...I home alone with them....I'm really tired..I think its this weather..well I'm out..I think I'm gonna get ahold of my mom and see what she says about me going with Meilah at 4pm and I kinda want to bring my sister..I know thats a shock...well I'm out...
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[07 Jul 2005|10:30am] |
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MILAH IS BACK!!!....oh I have so much fun with her..she is so much like me and I so enjoy being with her...Yesterday we put her room together and it was the most funI have ever had in awhile with a female.. Milah and I designed and picked out all the colors for her room...and its a secret of what it is so can't tell...anyways right now I can't get ahold of her cause she is still sleeping...and London got attacked by terriost...thats scarey..its like what country is next?...It freaks me out although we don't live in London...anyways today I'm going to Jared'sI think to finish the room inless Milah did it...but I doubt it cause we had to put a second coat of paint up..I don't I never doubt her cause she can do anything...If theres one person to look up to its Milah...I mean what person comes back from all the way across the united states when she owns her own bissnus and can drive a nice car and live in a nicer house but comes back to help a house out in desperate help and has to drive a mini van..well it takes alot of heart which is what Milah has...Milah has totally brought up my self esteem in just one day...I really need a friend who lives close to home like her...To bad she isn't staying long this year, like she did last year cause I will really miss her..Although she fired me from painting trim..haha..long story...well I'm out...laterz
muahz*
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[05 Jul 2005|01:14am] |
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I haven't written in this in awhile...this summer has been ok..with the few bumps and problems in between....I still go out with Joe..But some of his family members heven't treated me oh so fairly because I feel they still have a little more growing up to do..and one of them hasn't gottan the responsible trait yet...I'm not getting into it because I don't need anymore problems..Nicole hasn't been home very much sense she is spending week days in West Hartford with her dad and weekends down here which will probably end up in New York with her other family...Well I don't have a job yet sense Jimmy's sucks and is just hell and other places either don't hire 16 year olds or are just not hiring..Joe got a job at Pep Boy's only cause his sister's boyfriend is the manager of there..My dad and I still don't get along very well and the other day my dad throws a Adam's aplication for a job at me..he is being gay about me not haven a job when he doesn't really have one...plus yesterday he threaten me that he'll make it so I can't date Joe which is gay cause I didn't do anything...anyways the fireworks were good only cause I did watch them with Joe and thats the first time I watched them with a boyfriend...today we lit tons of illegal fireworks off and them Jess her boyfriend,katie, Joe and I went to the beach around 10:15pm and lit more fire works and just sat on the rocks and chilled to watch other fireworks that were being lit around us it was pretty nice and even better to be with Joe...I have no idea what I'm doing tomorrow..I know I won't be with Joe cause he told me hanke wants to hangout with him...Milah is coming back tomorrow so maybe I'll just go there tomorrow...well I'm out!
nighty night
*sweet dreamz*
-amber-
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[21 May 2005|11:46pm] |
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I've just relized I've made out in 30 different places but theres probably more that I can't think of!
This may seem like I'm a slut..lol...but if you know me I'm not!
Nighty Night
*SweetDreamz*
Muahz*
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[16 May 2005|08:07pm] |
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Well..I went to school today..then I had a softball game..we won..we played Eli Whitteny...we are 11-0 in are league and 14-3 all together with public schools..amazing I know..This Wednesday we play Wright Tech home and East Haven away..then we have play offs...my boyfriends prom is in two weeks...I can't wait..
Joe and I are still going out, We have been going out for 5 months and 4 days...its gone by quick..I have afternoon practice tomorrow..super!...Today greg was being a jerk in class so I wrote a poem about him and gave it to him and he started laughing...but Mrs.Pavlat got it from another girl cause they like to get other people in trouble but when they get in trouble they whine about it...uh my pj shorts ripped more..damn..anywaysI'm out cause um yea...laterz
xox
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[14 May 2005|10:52pm] |
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I just wanted to talk to you till 10!!!!!!
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Uh I can't sleep...I didn't go to school because the sunless tanner my mom sprayed sunless tanner on me and I woke up looking like pigpen...Joe came over around 2 and then I had to drop something off at church with my mom..then while my mom did that Joe and I went to Krawzers..when we got home Joe and I got Nancy..we came back to my house with him and then we just jammed...my mom drove Nancy home so he could get ready for work..then we had to drop Joe off so he could babysit but his dad came home early..so I had to go home call Joe and then meet him at Jared's...we hung out on the front lawn with jared,Jon,John,and Katie.Then Joe and I went back to his house and chilled the rest of the night at his house..we cuddled and watched Comedy Central and then his sister came over with Napolean Dynamite cause Joe never saw it...around 9:40pm Joe's sister drove me home..then I called Joe and talked till him mom got home..after that I started reading my old journals and made myself upset with things that happened in the psat with Joe and started thinking I'm going to loose Joe knowing I'm not and I can't sleep now..he called good night and we talked for about 15minutes...uh I wish I could talk to him now...I don't know if I'm seeing Joe tomorrow and if I am I don't know what time...well good night buut I'm going to probably stay up another hour..Joe is the best in the whole entire world..no one can make me more happy then Joe does <3
Nighty Night
*Sweet Dreamz*
xox
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[30 Apr 2005|09:13am] |
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Well yesterday was full of drama...school was gay..last night I went to the hate to have to go back benefit show..my boyfriend was playing it..and may I say his band did good although Jon's bass string broke...when they were done I helped put their equipment in Jon and Jared's van...then I went inside and was watching the other band for a little while and Nick came up to me and was like Jess is in the back laying on a table drunk..so I go back there and there she was laying on a table drunk..so I get on the table and was like are you ok and she was like no and she was like don't move me or rub my stomach..so she is all pale..and RJ got her drunk..and Jason was their drunk and high but he wasn't with her..so I got Joe and he started to talk to her..and then I was like RJ what was she drinking and he was like a whole bunch of forties and he reeked of the smell of alcohol...and so did jess and then Jayson was giving her water and she got up and spit the water everywhere..then everyone went away and Jess looked horrible and she started to cry and I care about her so much as much as I do for my boyfriend so she was soak and wet and I gave her my hoodie sense she was cold and I held her and we just started to cry...my makeup was running and jess was like thank you amber I love you...Joe came back and was like you need fresh air lets put her outside and she would let us we did get her outside finally and then we came back in and she sat for awhile and then was like amber bring me to the bathroom so we went into the boys cause it was the closest and the door was open...so she sat on the floor and had her had on the toilet boil..the Will Petterson came in and I tried to push back but he was like my stitched poped and I was like oh sorry...their fixing up will while jess is barfing..then they left and my boyfriend comes in and then Ian comes in and was like uh jess why do you have to be a tit squirrel..lol.that was funny..Ian is like 22 who hanges with 14 year olds..go figure..I don't know...then Jess was ok and we had her lay down on the floor to the entrance of the American Legion cause thats where is was being held..then I went outside with Joe and there was Brianna crying so I was like whats wrong and she was like my boyfriend just left never told me or said goodbye..and I gave her a hug..then Joe gave her a hug and had his arms around her and we were outside the door talking to Jon..I guess they were trying to get ahold of John and Jared cause they left with the equipment and everything..they actually thought Joe and Jon were with them..what asses..then they come back and Joe leaves to go to Taco Bell when like a few days ago Joe was like oh I'll stay the whole show with you..and after all the drama that had happened already I would think he would stay..nope..so Joe was like give me a kiss goodbye and I gave a peck and walked away and then he was like no a real kiss and so I gave a peck and tried to walk away but he pulled me back so I just kissed him and left...and went back to Jess where I cried..then I took Brianna up stairs to have fun and her cell rings and its Joe..he's like were coming back do you want anything I'm like no...Needless to say they never came back and some ass hole Foran kids started with everyone and punched Joe in the back of the head..anyways so I went to take a piss and there was a girl with a boyfriend in there and I guess her boyfriend was mad at someone and some girl came and was like you won't fight him and it taunted him so he runs up stairs so I'm like oh great..then I just go upstairs to watch the show...so I'm watchen this kid grabb the other kids face and scream at him so I walk over there and was like break it up this isn't the place to do this and you need to grow up so when I move the kid who was in the bathroom with me before punches him right in the jaw not that hard to bleed or break..so I throw the other kidd on the other side of the room and was like I thought I told you to stop..yea and then I just watched the rest of the show and was also with Jess..but there was this whacky "homeless" vegetarian PETA 21yr old..I made her mad..I asked her if she was in PETA and she freaked..then I walked away from that..then at 11:20pm my parents came...I got home went to bed and Joe called and explained everything and I'm not mad at him anymore..so yea that was my great night!...laterz
xox
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so this weekend has been good..my parents left like a half an hour ago for their trip but they will be back tomorrow..yea how lame..but oh well...I saw Joe yesterday...ohh I love him!...I have a game tomorrow..and tonight I am sleeping at A-Man-Duh's but I doubt we will get any sleep..I'm gonna miss my bus I know it..lol...then Laurie will be pissed and have no choice but drive me to school..haha..well I'm tired so laterz
xox
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So today I woke up at 8:18am for softball..Joe called to wake me up.. I got dressed did my hair and left..Softball practice started at 9am and was over at 10:45am..then I came home called Joe then he left and went to the store with his mom to get a gift for his dad's birthday..then around 2:30 he came over..and we shortly left to go to the Dentist to get my braces tightened...then we came and home and Joe and I went to the beach and chilled...we went home after and then chilled and watch Next and Fear Factor till Dinner..after dinner I went back to the beach with Joe and skipped rocks which I suck really bad at..haha...then we got back to my house around 7:30pm and then ate JELLO!...Joe had to left at 8pm my mom drove him home and my dog came with us..mm I love joe..I never want anything to happen to him he means everything to me..so yea things are good between us..he'll be 18 in 2 weeks on May 1st which is a sunday..Softball is getting annoying..I'm getting to that point I don't want to do it anymore..but oh well right...yea I have pratice again tomorrow at 9am to 11am..and I'll be tired as fuck...well I'm going..laterz!
Nighty Night
*Sweet Dreamz*
xox
-Amber-
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so yea life is pretty much sucking it...shop sucks..softball is ok..the girls are getting catty...we won are game yesterday...tomorrow we have another game against O'brien...ooo fun...Joe came over today but had to go home at 5:30pm to watch Sebestian...yea and life is gay so I'll go now
Nighty Night
*Sweet Dreamz*
xox
-amber-
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So yea nothing has special haapened sense I've written in this but my soft ball team beat Derby High twice..and yesterday I went to Jon and Jared's and hung out then help them get ready for Jon/Jess surprise party only he was informed but it was mainly surprise party for Jess...Hate to Have to go Back was recording in the basement..they are doing a acustic album, to make extra money...sense they are going on tour this May..and Jared's cousin is in that band..then around like 4pm I made brownies and the last package I opened exploded all over me..the whole band was laughing at me..haha..the brownie mix was mainly on my boobs..lol...then I helped Jared's mom's friend decorate...their was like a millon pizzas there..after jess came in and we said surprise I went into the basement..and then my boyfriends band started to jam..and after they were done Hate to Have to Go Back asked them to play at the American Legion April 29th...their playing with mainly emo bands but oh well...anyways then we all went up to Pagels park and had a shoe flinging contest I beat jared a million times and Joe well he beat me sorta..Greg pretended to be a cop and scared some punk ass kids from my neighborhood...I think they were scared cause he was black..haha..Greg is cool though...then when we went back to Jared's house we sang happy birthday and then I went down in the basement and started playing bass and then the lead singer/guitarist started playing drums and joe started playing guitar and so did my boyfriend and we all jammed..although I didn't know the bass riff to Joe's band songs so he gave me them and I played with them it was cool..and then Joe started playing what do I do by Jimmies Chicken Shack...I knew that song and that was fun..after we just chilled in Jared's room till 10 and then I had to go..and now I'm really tired and up but John was the one who woke me up sense he kept hitting timmy's computer chair and timmy with a baseball bat..haha...well I must go..laterz
xox
-amber-
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You all suck....all people do is dislike you cause your ugly..thats my conclusion..get into a fight on purpose 90% the time they will be like you ugly bitch etc and etc...I thought high school was different from middle school....I guess not..screw you people..High school people just spread more rumors..start more fight..and make people just hate themselves more...Chris got my year books back from lexa finally and will hopefully give them to Rick..anyways I'm out and still grounded..there goes my weekend....
Nighty Night
*Sweet Dreamz*
xox
-amber-
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Happy Easter!
So I haven't written in this in awhile..my reason well I have a life and the computer is the last thing I do in my day...so its east well its very boring..everyone is at their family's house and my family just sucks cause were never invited anywhere...Tomorrow I have softball practice at 5:45am...yea I'm looking forward to waking up at 5am...My first softball game is April 6th...oh well..I have acdemics tomorrow so there is something to look forward too..CAPT starts Tuesday..4 hours straight of testing and then we have to go to classes the rest of the day..I have no idea what I'm doing tomorrow..I still go out with Joe and it will be 4 months soon...I love Joe more and more everyday...I don't know how to express it to him and when I do I screw up and be a bitch to him...I think I'm not as nice as I should be to him...I'm afraid he'll be like bitch its over I can't take you anymore...ha that sounds funny..well I trying to turn over a new leaf so lets see how this turns out...so the weirdo keeps calling me and Chris told me to give him his cell phone number and he called but hung up on Chris...he never called me back so that worked..well I'm out cause jess has to print pictures and she is getting annoying...laterz
xox
-amber-
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So it snowed a major lot and I can't stand snow anymore...today is 3 months for Joe and I...He may of forgot but he likes to count years not months..oh well..tonight is my party..if you didn't get invited then your either not a close friend or your real dick...or I couldn't invite you becuase their was too many people coming..anyways Joe's SAT's testing got canceled..so he is happy and sleeping..he won't be over till like 1pm sense he likes to sleep till 12 then shovels and then take his sweet time eating breakfast...so I can't sleep at all anymore..I have no idea why...anyways I gotta wash the dog with Joe..haha that will be interesting...then I gotta vacuum...I'm going to make Joe dust..and I gotta wash the floor..hahaha..but for now I must go..laterz...
xox
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Well today was fun..A-man-duh,Jess and I went to Family dollar and bought crap..and A-man-duh through me a fake birthday party sense she can't come to mine becuase she'll be in Florida...my fake party consisted ofher blowing up a pack of balloons and throwing them around my bedroom and then Kool-aid and Now and Laters..hehe it was fun..Then Jess,A-man-duh,and I went walking all the way to Maddy's and she was outside with Jason and Rich so we hung out with them for awhile..it was fun...then my sister and A-man-duh's friend Rowan came down the street with this kid with Misfits clothing on and I just gave him a random hug cause I have no life..they got a picture of it...Then we went back to my hosue cause we were cold...then we hung out and it was fun..Joe is sick and I feel bad..I don't know when I'll see him again becuase he is bisy this week..but oh well...laterz
nighty night
*Sweet Dreamz*
xox
-amber-
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so I haven't typed on here is awhile..I have stuffy nose and I'm tired...I went on a field trip today..how fun was that..well their was so many smells from the things they were maken I got a really bad migrane..then I guess my pupils were big it was from the meds and everyone was like amber were you smoking pot and I'm like I don't smoke or smoke pot. We got back around 12:11pm...we had left at 8:45am...I didn't see Joe today sense he was with Jared and Jon...I hope I see him tomorrow...its a Friday and I actually want to do something tomorrow..which won't happen...my birthday is coming up..March 15th...so ha...I feel horrible right now..I need ice cream...I'll feel better..I think...well I'm out sense I am light headed and etc...
nighty night
sweet dreamz
xox
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